Só Por Hoje...

 Só Por Hoje....

"Não sei amar pela metade, nunca soube. Aliás, não se trata só de amor, mas de qualquer tipo de sentimento. Não sinto nada mais ou menos, ou eu gosto ou não gosto. Não sei sentir em doses homeopáticas. Preciso e gosto de intensidade, e se não for assim, prefiro que não seja."

THE READER

I have been reading "The Reader" and this two parts came to my attention. Maybe in many situations we need a anaesthesia just to follow our decisions. 

"... I reach a conclusion, I turn the conclusion into a decision, and then I discover that action on the decision is something else entirely, and that doing so many proceed from the decision, but then again it mat not. Often enough in my life I have done things I had not decide to do...

I don't mean to say that thinking and reaching decision have no influence on behaviour. But behaviour does not merely enact whatever has already been thought through and decided. It has its own sources, and is my behaviour, quite independently, just as my thoughts, and my decisions my decisions."

"Who had given me the injection? Had I done it myself because I couldn't manage without anaesthesia? In every part of my life, I stood outside myself and watched; I saw myself functioning at the university, with my parents, and brothers and my friends, but inwardly I felt no involvement."